10:10 a.m., August 13, 2007. I will never forget the time and date my life irrevocably changed forever. It was the day I went through the most amazing experience any woman could ever have - giving birth.I had quite a journey during my pregnancy. No, I wasn't one of those women who threw up at the mere sight of "offensive" foods or had "impossible" cravings (a cousin of a friend harassed her husband no end for PERFECTLY SQUARE avocados). Physically, I had a relatively easy and uncomplicated pregnancy, labor, and delivery.
But, emotionally it was a different story. I was bursting with excitement when I first found out, at 7 weeks, that I was pregnant. It was surreal yet spiritual in a way. I was constantly in awe of the fact that there was another human being growing inside me. But then, hormones do really kick-in big time when you're pregnant. Plus, the fact that circumstances weren't really ideal and some things were just beyond my control made for a roller coaster ride of emotions, which I kept hidden well within me. No crying fits or wild tantrums for this girl.
But I'm past all those now. I am in a much better place than I've ever been in this lifetime and it all started that warm August morning.
Yoah is my pride and joy. Not until he came into my life did I realize that it is possible to feel so much love for another human being. I never thought that I would totally and completely love another as if it's the most natural thing in the world to do. I love my family and dearest friends very much but the love for one's child is of a different level, of a different kind. I realize now the wisdom of the mothers who came before me, who spoke of unconditional love as if they're just talking about a really normal and regular thing to do like grocery shopping.
Having him is by far, the best thing that's happened to me. I love every minute of being a mother and there's a sense of peace and serenity that motherhood has brought me. It is a humbling experience yet the most rewarding. One toothless smile, one touch from chubby little fingers, one look of recognition from those big, brown eyes, are enough to wipe away the fears, sorrows, and exhaustion of the day.
It really is a beautiful and blessed life.
